!!!!

u kno what???
who cares about eczema and how it looks!!
imma do watever i want whenever i want however ways i choose to!
screw hiding and limiting myself just coz of how i look on the day! >:)

maybe it's not as bad as I think?

Hmm.. yeah...
Maybe it really wasn't as bad as I thought. lol.
I thought of it now coz everyone was really nice to me when I got back from work..
My dad talked to me about whats happenin in his life. which is like WOW coz he never usually do. Then when I got home Mum was reallyyy nice.. Like, I was so pissed at her for scolding me in the morning.. but tonite, it was completely diff..
So maybe, it was just one of those moments when things somehow didn't work in everyone's life.. But maybe it wasn't that bad.
Maybe it's just coz I was in a worried state of mind that everything seems so rank..

Maybe, maybe..

But you know what, if you have a seemingly huge ass problem atm, just step back a bit and look at it from a diff perspective.. I'm sure it's not as complicated and as big as u think it is. And remember, God will never give you anything you can't handle ;)

this song is awthum :)

a very materialistic, sad song but yeah.. i LOVE the beat :)

the blues are colouring my world now :(

Here comes a loooongggg complicatedd random thought of the day sighhh:

So, the exams week is coming up.
I had one exam this morning (which i think i screwed up over), a mock practical exam tomorrow morning and another calculation exam on friday. And the real final exams are just a mere 2 weeks away.
That's ok right.. but the problem is, I'm in one of those moments when I just can't do anything.
I literally don't have any motivation to move my ass off and do something productive.
Like, I've been sitting here for the past 2 hours, doing nothing but msn and like random fbing, listening to music and just absolutely nothing productive. lol.
I guess this is allrite if you're up to date with everything like ilectures etc etc.. But i am sooo far away from being updated.
And procrastination in general suxxx :X hahah.. coz the one thing that I hate the most is wasting the precious limited 24 hours away, but sadly I never get away from it.. LOL aghh..

Adding to the rapidly approaching exam and procrastinating mood problems, I also have some crazily ridiculous family problems, that shouldn't have happened in the first place but it happened anyway. And this is the last thing you want during exams week.. because during that time like the people u will probably meet most often is ur family. And you do need them coz they're like the people you should be able to fall back on when ure stressed out and one of the most, if not the most important foundation in ur life.

Oh well~~
just gotta pick myself up now.. and just get on with it..

the song im luphin

Woah. I'm not alone!!

So, I haven't written a blog entry for agesss!!!!
I feel like doing it now so here I am.. :D

As many of you know (or don't know), I have a skin condition called Eczema. What's eczema? It's "a noncontagious inflammation of the skin, characterized chiefly by redness, itching, and the outbreak of lesions that may discharge serous matter and become encrusted and scaly".
Huh???? lollssss...

Basicly, my skin gets inflammed, red and itchy and then it becomes really dry and scaly. Sometimes during the worst times my skin would be really red it looks like I've been punched or sumtin.
Scary huh? Yes I think so.
It's pretty crappy having to live with it lol.
And I didn't know about it till like Year 11!
Never had it before and suddenly it just came up after the exams started. :S (probably coz of stress)
Sux.. lol
According to the dermatologist it's inherited from my mum who has asthma. Coz asthma, eczema, and hayfever lies on the same strand of DNA so if you've got one of these conditions there's a chance of you having the others.

So yeah, felt pretty depressed and very very inconfident for the past 3 years of my life. Like, visits to the GP and dermatologists didn't help much and I basically learned more from my own experiences.

Quite recently though, I've realised that I'm actually not the only one with this annoying thing!
I was bored one day and I typed in eczema on youtube. From there I found this dude in Canada who also got eczema, and apparently he's had it all his life. Check it out:
http://www.youtube.com/user/myscarletguitar#play/uploads/3/M_joEfXEiME
or
http://www.youtube.com/user/myscarletguitar#play/all/uploads-all/2/BkeFerLrfQ8

and this girl who also hav it:
http://myeyelideczema.wordpress.com/
(Warning: pretty scary pictures LOL but that's what happened to me too)

So yeahhhhhhh.... If anyone out there have eczema too, dw ure not alone :)

the simple gift of an egg

Last last week.. i forgot when exactly, my church youth had a closing nite for the year..
It was amazing to think how the year had gone sooo quickly..
it's crazy how much u miss out.. especially because of exams and all the hecticness dat goes with it.. hahahahh...

Anyway... at the end of the nite.. we had the gift swapping thingo..
so every1 hu attend brought a gift wrapped in newspaper..
oh wait... except 1 person hu ddnt bring anythin and quickly grabbed a newspaper he found on the stage hahaahah...
*not gonna say the name xD*

We all stood in a circle and the presents got passed around.
Round and round the gifts go... some are lighter than u thought it wud be,
some heavy despite its "not-that-big" size

Finalllyyyy after a seemingly long rounds... we each got our presents...
*including the person hu ddnt bring any.. I think anyway lol*

I opened the newspaper... and... guess wat i got! an EGG!
Not just an ordinary egg.. it's called an eggling.. and when u crack the shell, water it, and leave it under the sun, it will grow into a STRAWBERRY PLANT!!!!
:D
:D

how KOOL is dat???!!

Anyway.. before the gift swapping and everything.. we got a message from the preacher..
He asked all of us to pass the one MOst PRECIOUS thing u have rite now to the person next to u..
I passed my wallet..
*even though it was empty hahahah*
And then he asked evry1: Do you like the gift that u received?
Most said yes.. Some said no.. including me..
lol actually i wud LUPH to receive the gift.. *i was saying it just for the fun of it lol*
Different people have diff opinions on why they don't like it..
I said that I couldn't use the shoe coz it doesn't fit me..

He then went on saying: Isn't this like what we usually do?
We often get presents from someone..
And you never think that maybe this person gave the absolute BEST thing he or she had to give to you..
It may not be useful to you or you might not like it or you may think "I wish I had gotten something else"..
But think about the person's feeling.. How would she or he feels?
What do you do if someone give you the BEST BEST thing that he or she has...
Would you reject it?
Or would you keep it?
It was short and simple.. but i never thought about this... xD

Made me feel even MORE guilltier coz it reminds me of wat i did lol..
Once, I got this naruto classbook from my friend.. she knew that i LUPHED naruto..
However, i gave it to my other friend coz i tot I wouldn't use it and i cbb to ask ppl to write lol... *so stupid of me*
I didn't tell her that i "gave it away".
Anyway the worst thing is when one day, this other friend asked my friend (the one hu gave the classbook to me) to fill in her new classbook...
OMG.... i feel so bad lol......... sorryyy >.< Anyway... in this case.. I LUPH my present.. so I have nothing to worry about hahahahah...


the one I got was like this but pink with strawberry picture :)